Truth Thursdays: I am ready for…

nothing.

it’s nearly thursday again, and i’ve been wanting to do a truth thursday entry for the longest time. but somehow, amidst the chaotic serenity my brain (and heart) has been going through, i tend to just let things slide.

i’ve been trying to think of things that i am ready for right now, and seeing that it took me almost a week to do this entry, i think that my answer is what it is. nothing.

how can you fully prepare for something?

just a couple of hours ago, i was texting with marsh and i told her that i want to prepare myself for the worst. i was already thinking how bad things will be and the logic behind it is, if i started thinking bad about it now, i wouldn’t be as sad when the time comes. and her – being smarter and out of my box and all – told me, “I don’t think it will be as bad as your thinking.” and as always, she’s right.

in the end, if i do get to cry, or fail, or fall, what will happen will happen.

que sera, sera.

i was watching a great movie yesterday in HBO entitled Evening, starring Claire Danes, Meryl Streep, Vannessa Redgrave, to name a few. i don’t want to get into the detail of the movie, but there was a line there that goes, “There are no such things as a mistake.  You get nervous, but you sing anyways.”

so really, there is nothing that you can ever prepare yourself for. you would only truly, really know what to do when you are finally there.

and so, here i am, scared and trembling half my wits off, eyes closed, hands curled with one foot ready for it’s next step, let me say this out loud:

I am ready for everything.

“courage is being afraid of something, but doing it anyway.” – Monk

i’m out.

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Author: angparaluman

a poster girl with no poster staying on the safe side of the road less traveled.

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