i think i was in grade 5 when i was able to watch pretty woman. and i remember i was not allowed to watch it since it was “bad” because of the love scenes. but since isa akong malaking pasaway, i watched it especially since i knew my mom would never allow me to watch it.
and then, right away, i fell in love. of course, i still didn’t know what being in love meant during those years, but i remember i first loved the movie because of the song “Kiss” while she was in the bathtub. i wanted that kind of bathtub and i wanted the bubbles.
later on, my ate bought a VHS copy (kamusta naman ang nostalgia?!) and i would watch it again, and again and again. after a while, i wanted to shop like vivian did. and then later on, i wanted to become like vivian.
and tonight, after maybe a hundred times (or more) of watching Pretty Woman, i still sing everytime Vivian is in the tub, i still cry everytime she watches the opera, and i still get giddy everytime Edward climbs that flight of stairs.
i have to thank Direk since it never came to the point that i wanted to become a prostitute as well, but i wanted the whole fairytale too. i wanted someone who would love me no matter how bakya or mahalay i become. but for some reason, it never really worked that way for me.
today, i had an epiphany. i got my favorite movie right, but i forgot the most important thing that vivian did in that movie.
she never compromised, and she wanted more.
and today, i realized, there was nothing wrong with wanting more. the thing with me is, i wanted the fairytale, but everytime a
potential pseudo-prince charming comes along my way, i don’t revise my fairytale, but i settle for my prince charming, which is OH SO WRONG. wrong prince charming equals wrong fairytale.
oh gawd, why did it take me 10 years to realize that?
well, i could be wrong again, you know. but in this life, nothing can be sure forever. so let me try this theory this time. obviously, the old one doesn’t work out.
“so what happens after he climbs the tower and rescues her?
she rescues him right back.”