vindicated.

once again my curiosity got the best of me.
then again, maybe it is really for the best.
you got the answer you have been waiting for.
as every telenovela would end with a dramatic, heart wrenching final blow. the epilogue.
the scene where it says happy ever after.
or better yet, the scene that finally, FINALLY says
THE END.
i just want to say
(and i sure damn can since this is my blog)
nakakatawa since i know EXACTLY HOW THAT FEELS.
i know EXACTLY THE SAME WORDS.
THE SAME SONGS.
THE SAME POEMS.
THE SAME LOVE LETTERS.
THE SAME LOVE STORIES.
THE SAME WORDS OF PRAISE.
THE SAME MURMURS IN YOUR EAR.
THE SAME FLATTERY THAT HITS that spot EVERY SINGLE TIME.
WALA NA BANG BAGO!?!?!?!?!?!?

I have been right all along.
i should’ve trusted my instinct!!
may pa crayola effect ka pang nalalaman!!
wiz na!!
sayang ang beauty ko, neng.
lesson learned?
i don’t ever want to be number 1 in my man’s heart.
i want to be THE ONE.
call me selfish, i have been selfless and VERY stupid for the last 3 years.
ang dami ko gustong sabihin.
ang dami ko gustong gawin.
ang dami ko gustong ipakita.
ang dami ko gustong i-post.
gusto kong isigaw sa buong mundo ang ginawa mo.
ang p a g s i s i n u n g a l i n g na ginawa mo.
ang p a g l i l i n l a n g na ginawa mo.
but, i will just
L E T I T G O
as i should have done many, many, many months ago.
at meron pa akong nalalaman na
“i have to respect the relationship. ang patay nga pinaglalamayan, may 40 days man lang.”
bob.
di ka umabot ng 9 days.
di ka pa patay, nakalibing ka na.
OO.
BINASURA NIYA ANG ININGATAN MO NG PAGKATAGAL TAGAL.
hindi siya nagsisisi.
kung tutuusin, isinusuka ka niya. dali-dali niyang itinapon ang iningatan mo.
daig mo pa ang pambalot sa tinapa.
iyon nga inirerecycle pa.
e ikaw.
para kang ipis na dumapong bigla sa braso niya.
YUCK!! get off me!!!
gusto niya ang ginagawa niya.
“i believe that i am where i’m meant to be so nothing will go wrong.”
sa kanya, tama ang desisyon niya.
at ikaw?
dapat tama din ang desisyon mo!
HINDI IKAW ANG NAGKULANG.
IBINIGAY MO ANG LAHAT.
that is MY favorite mistake.
can you still get mad at this person?
hindi na.
sayang ang effort.
anyway, both your mistakes were your favorites in the first place.
nakakatawa.
so much for RESPECT.
respect my ass.

titigan mong mabuti ang pinaggagawa mo.
basahin mong mabuti ang bawat letra.
2 years old ka palang, marunong ka na magbasa.
eto na ang pinakatamang pagkakataon na gamitin mo ang reading skills mo.
read it, absorb it.
SAVOR IT.
UNDERSTAND IT.
sear it to your flesh.
run it through your blood.
carve it to your bones.
and let this be the last time you’ll ever do this.
please clear your auto-fills.

“it’s ok to fall in love with 2 persons at the same time.. that’s our favorite mistake.”
“we can’t blame each other. we’re only human.”

and you claim this person loved you!!?
for a very, very smart girl, you can be very, very dumb, too.
no man who claims that his love “would never age, faden, or die… for forever is too short for me to love you” would cowardly hide behind his mistress skirt.
that ain’t love, sweetheart.
you should have learned that the 1st time it happened.
any man who cheats on you does not love you ENOUGH.
ang biased ko naman if i say he didn’t love you.
oh.. i’m sure he did.
but it’s just not enough.
FOR YOU, that is.

this is it bob.
read your last entry.
you have no reason to be afraid anymore.
it’s ok to be happy na!!!
and it’s ok to feel that you are special.
because you are. you got to start believing that again.
you’ve been wanting to be happy for so long.
and i think you deserve to be happy with a man who will take care of you.
and will not get angry when you’re a bit late.
and will let you wear your hair anyway you want to.
and will protect you from dangerous places.
and doesn’t make any promises they don’t intend to keep.
and will treat you like a lady.
so act like one.
don’t fight it na bob.
fight for it this time.
you got what you wanted.
we’re finally vindicated.🙂

Author: angparaluman

a poster girl with no poster staying on the safe side of the road less traveled.

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