it’s been too long since i actually wrote in my journal.. or in any blog for that matter. too many things have happened in my life since i last really wrote, and that was about papa j. i didn’t have the energy to do anything. it was as if someone put a pause in my life and went out to by some cigarettes. i used to like writing what happened to me whether it was good or bad, but somehow my mana just evaporated. (excuse the lingo too much DOTA. heheh)
life is indeed a roller coaster ride, you don’t know what you’ve got til its gone, it’s his loss, you will survive are some of the super cliches i have heard for the past month.
but in all reality. it’s not anyone’s loss. tough luck lang that i didn’t get what i want. and no matter how much groveling or muttering i do, THE WORLD WILL STILL REVOLVE. people will still go to work, taxes will get higher, and i will still have that occasional big zit every now and then.
bitter people ask me if i will love again. yes i will. maybe with the same man, maybe with a new one. but through this whole experience i have learned that i can never give up on love. i love being in love. not even necessarily with a person even. i just love the fact that i am in love.
so to my mr right, who ever you are, if you even bother reading this blog, please take your time.. i may not be really waiting for you, but when the time comes for me to love you and to love me, you can be assured that i’ll be ready. 🙂