Bukas Nalang Kita Mamahalin

mood: confused
music: Babe – Styx

was supposed to write about something else, but i was inspired by one of my friends. its good to be distracted once again before i spill out more thoughts that have been bugging me quite recently.

people always say,” you don’t know what you’ve got til its gone” but sometimes its more bewildering if you know what you’ve got before its even gone. the fear of losing someone so important to you engulfs your whole being that in the end, you lose it because you already dread it.

recently 2 good friends of mine broke up. they were my pillars. i always thought, “if they can get through it, so can we.” but alas, it died. the guy kept on writing poems and sentiments of their lost love.. became the modern day Pablo Neruda overnight. and though i was pretty close to the girl, i felt bady for the guy. he loves her so much that losing her left him shattered.

i talked to the girl and told him that her ex mutated to Pablo Neruda, and i wondered why after everything that he has done to get her back, she declined. i know she still loves him, with all her heart, but something held her back.

“he talked of a love LOST, of broken dreams and promises even before the break up. i was just wondering why he thought i was already gone. i was with him the whole time.”

it made sense, what she said. he was busy mourning for something that wasn’t even dead. and its sad, because it ended because it was destined and planned to be ended.

i too, am partly guilty of this crime. i’m so busy thinking of what I have done, how much I love him. how much I am sacrificing and somehow I think to myself it is still not enough. i’m so busy magnifying my own love that i barely see the effort of my partner. i’m blinded by the glory of my love to him that i forget its not a one way street.

now i guess i understand what they mean by “love is blind”.

i just spent the last 20 minutes warping to randomness with the background of Robbie Willams’ song, “Better Man”. wala lang. hirap ma-in love, but i wouldn’t want it any other way.

anyway, i better stop before i write anything more drastic here. i better go to sleep early na. i have to take care of my damn dry skin. i have a shoot this Saturday and i look like a TOTAL WRECK. geeez.

so with that, i guess im out.

argh. i just really have to post this song. i’ve been wanting to for a long time.

Bukas Nalang Kita Mamahalin

Kay hirap palang umibig sa gitna ng panahon
Kung bakit ngayon ko lang natagpuan ang isang katulad mo

Sana noon pakita nakilala
Sana noon pa lang na ang puso ay malaya pang magmahal

Bukas nalang kita mamahalin
Sabay sa paglaya ng ating mga puso
Bukas na lang kita mamahalin

Kay hirap pa lang umibig sa di tamang panohon
Kung bakit ngayon ko lang natagpuan ang isang katulad mo

Sana noon pakita nakilala
Sana noon pa lang na ang puso ay malaya pang magmahal

Bukas nalang kita mamahalin
Sabay sa paglaya ng ating mga puso
Bukas na lang kita
Bukas na lang kita
Bukas na lang kita
Mamahalin

there. i feel better. thank you.

Author: angparaluman

a poster girl with no poster staying on the safe side of the road less traveled.

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