music: Always on my Mind – Elvis Presley
eeekkkk… what a long week i had…. really long… but i have to admit that it was quite spicy.. don’t you think? 😀
didn’t have the chance to log in yesterday due to the fact that i was sooo engrossed on fixing my computer which bugged out on me 2 days ago.. files were lost, precious pictures forever gone… but i guess they will always remain in my heart.
anyway.. yesterday was an okay day i guess.. joshua and i fought.
well, not really fought to the point of breaking up. it was just a normal me and him fighting over little things that couples usually do.
it all started when i wasnt able to sent the thesis that he wanted me to send… so i said maybe i can do something about it.. and then…
bobsie_casasola (4:22:49 AM): how does that sound…
joshua_tisoy (4:23:28 AM): ikaw bahala.. u just hav to be sure
joshua_tisoy (4:23:38 AM): wut time
joshua_tisoy (4:24:39 AM): wut time
joshua_tisoy (4:24:42 AM): wut time
joshua_tisoy (4:26:01 AM): u know i was relying on u
joshua_tisoy (4:26:24 AM): and i hav a lot of work to do
joshua_tisoy (4:27:33 AM): ano na
joshua_tisoy (4:28:31 AM): kng alam ko na ganun, ginawa ko na kagabi yan
joshua_tisoy (4:28:55 AM): wut na?
joshua_tisoy (4:28:57 AM): wut na?
joshua_tisoy (4:28:59 AM): wut na?
bobsie_casasola (4:29:02 AM): woah.. re you mad at me?
bobsie_casasola (4:29:17 AM): sorry i was reading the message of chants and kaye…
bobsie_casasola (4:29:27 AM): um… di ka rin demanding noh..
bobsie_casasola (4:29:34 AM): ull have it before night time.
bobsie_casasola (4:29:39 AM): ill do it after my shoot.
joshua_tisoy (4:30:03 AM): u want u talk to chants muna?
bobsie_casasola (4:30:11 AM): no.. it was an email.. are you mad?
bobsie_casasola (4:30:15 AM): what did i do?
joshua_tisoy (4:30:35 AM): nevermind
bobsie_casasola (4:30:41 AM): hon?
bobsie_casasola (4:30:45 AM): what?
joshua_tisoy (4:30:48 AM): im goin back to sleep
bobsie_casasola (4:30:48 AM): are you blaming me?
bobsie_casasola (4:30:51 AM): are you blaming me?
joshua_tisoy (4:30:56 AM): matulog ka na din
bobsie_casasola (4:30:57 AM): are you blaming me?
bobsie_casasola (4:31:03 AM): hoy
joshua_tisoy (4:31:25 AM): its late na der
bobsie_casasola (4:31:31 AM): dont dodge
joshua_tisoy (4:31:59 AM): ma2log ka na
bobsie_casasola (4:32:08 AM): dont dodge
joshua_tisoy (4:32:34 AM): ano ba yng shoot mo?
bobsie_casasola (4:32:51 AM): the model agency that charlie represents…
bobsie_casasola (4:33:00 AM): its not a studio palang.. gonna make it all natural
bobsie_casasola (4:33:06 AM): digicam plang
joshua_tisoy (4:33:27 AM): aok..mag ingat ka ha
bobsie_casasola (4:33:30 AM): dont doge sweetie…
bobsie_casasola (4:33:34 AM): are you mad at me?
bobsie_casasola (4:34:11 AM): you cant be mad at me for someting that you were suppose to do that i offered my help to but unfortunately due to inexplainable circumstances cant reach you
bobsie_casasola (4:34:22 AM): and god knows i worked for that
joshua_tisoy (4:34:36 AM): oo cge na
bobsie_casasola (4:35:07 AM): okay.. you are totally ignoring me…
bobsie_casasola (4:35:11 AM): i know youre pissed
bobsie_casasola (4:35:17 AM): and you need someone to blame..
bobsie_casasola (4:35:23 AM): so its fine. i understand.
bobsie_casasola (4:35:37 AM): look, i can cancel the shoot alreight.
bobsie_casasola (4:35:43 AM): ill do your thesis again
bobsie_casasola (4:36:07 AM): is that good for you?
joshua_tisoy (4:36:26 AM): nde na… do your shoot
bobsie_casasola (4:36:43 AM): kung magiging issue, i will step back
bobsie_casasola (4:36:47 AM): you know i will.
bobsie_casasola (4:36:54 AM): you know this is my weakness.
bobsie_casasola (4:37:05 AM): i cant stand you being like that… i really give in.
bobsie_casasola (4:37:08 AM): okay..
bobsie_casasola (4:37:13 AM): are you tired na?
bobsie_casasola (4:37:18 AM): go na to sleep.
bobsie_casasola (4:37:22 AM): ako na bahala dito
bobsie_casasola (4:38:06 AM): although icant help but say this.. this is your thesis.. and i want you to remember im doing this because i love yo.
bobsie_casasola (4:38:12 AM): although icant help but say this.. this is your thesis.. and i want you to remember im doing this because i love you
bobsie_casasola (4:38:21 AM): okay.. you are totally ignoring me
bobsie_casasola (4:38:33 AM): cant i even see a smile?
bobsie_casasola (4:38:43 AM): sige nanga.
bobsie_casasola (4:39:13 AM): ill send it to your email
bobsie_casasola (4:39:16 AM): i love you
bobsie_casasola (4:39:23 AM): and thanks ha.
bobsie_casasola (4:39:25 AM): please.
joshua_tisoy (4:39:44 AM): i love u 2…sori
bobsie_casasola (4:40:01 AM): sometime you really have to think…
bobsie_casasola (4:40:11 AM): sometimes you do hurt me.
joshua_tisoy (4:40:20 AM): i was just rattled coz im on a tight sched
bobsie_casasola (4:40:26 AM): i do whatever you want and still i dont feel appreciated.
joshua_tisoy (4:40:44 AM): u know i appreciate u!
joshua_tisoy (4:40:49 AM): dnt say that
bobsie_casasola (4:40:56 AM): i dont know hon..
bobsie_casasola (4:41:08 AM): sometimes i really think im not good enough for you.
joshua_tisoy (4:41:16 AM): if u dnt want to do it cge!
bobsie_casasola (4:41:21 AM): am i?
joshua_tisoy (4:41:22 AM): il do everything
bobsie_casasola (4:41:24 AM): will i?
joshua_tisoy (4:41:34 AM): nevermind na nga
bobsie_casasola (4:41:40 AM): am i hon?
joshua_tisoy (4:42:08 AM): ilang araw 2log yung trabaho sa u. sna ginawa ko nalang
joshua_tisoy (4:42:53 AM): thanx tlga ha.
bobsie_casasola (4:43:12 AM): you’ll have it in an hour.
joshua_tisoy (4:43:57 AM): u know how much u mean to me…why do u have to ask those things
joshua_tisoy (4:44:25 AM): u kno i love you
joshua_tisoy (4:44:51 AM): ikaw lang nagsasabi na hindi kita mahal
joshua_tisoy (4:45:31 AM): so hndi ka na magrereply…
bobsie_casasola (4:45:40 AM): because you know that i will do anything for you.. but sometimes when you ask me to do things its like youre asking your maid.. you only call me honey when you need something from me.. and sometimes you know that hurts..
bobsie_casasola (4:45:59 AM): a little please and a small thank you goes a long way for me…
joshua_tisoy (4:46:07 AM): u kno thats not tru
joshua_tisoy (4:46:08 AM): u kno thats not tru
joshua_tisoy (4:46:09 AM): u kno thats not tru
joshua_tisoy (4:46:10 AM): u kno thats not tru
joshua_tisoy (4:46:55 AM): ano ka ba.
bobsie_casasola (4:47:14 AM): okay.. lets stop this na… we both are just stressed…
and so we did.. said our i love you’s.. kissed through the webbie and totally forgot all about it na the next second.
STRONGER THAN STEEL BABY.. STRONGER THAN STEEL.
here’s how i described him in my friendster.
…was looking for someone to laugh in my defeat, cry in my victory, abuse me with passion, torture me with sweetness, question my fidelity and frustrate me with the silent beating of his heart that calls for me.i need him to be arrogant in his victory, infuriated in his defeat,conquer the norm and love the insanity of a lonely world. he must eat our tormentors for breakfast and feed the bones to our dog, be able to magnify his flaws and still, despite all of these he chooses to be with me and love me and i choose to love him and we shall shout it to the whole world, “stronger than steel, baby… stronger than steel.” guess i already found him.
awww man.. im such a poet. 😀
yabang ko talaga.. but this is us. this is our world.. you know i never thought he would love me this much. i always thought that i loved him more.. i didn’t see it the other way around.. that maybe i wasn’t just giving him enough credit to show how much he really loves me. when he said that “you know how much you mean to me.. why do you have to say those things? you know i love you…ikaw lang ang nagsasabing hindi kita mahal.”… i felt so bad. i have been so selfish all this time.. i just always wanted to love him with my whole being that it blinds the love he also would really want to share with me.
shame on you bob.
but obviously its all good. he waited for me again for 3 hours.. we’re basically in the net the whole day… where could there be a room for other girls besides me?
i just love it. thats why i know his song for me is always on my mind by elvis.. and im going to post that one also today.
good night. 😀